During the summer of 2005, as I was getting ready to take the Texas Bar Exam, my Mom was diagnosed with cancer. At the time she was diagnosed, I didn’t think much of it. It was cancer, but medicine is incredible–surely she’d get better with surgery, chemo and radiation. Right? Well theoretically, yes, but not if the cancer is agressive and very advanced at the time it is caught.
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I passed the bar, had the Ave that December (my Mom’s first grandchild), and life went on. In the winter of 2006, my Mom got worse, and on May 19, 2006 just before lunchtime, my whole world changed forever. As a child (and even as an adult) I honestly never thought it was possible for life to continue without my Mom in it. In retrospect, I honestly think she was my best friend. I talked to her daily–sometimes several times a day. It was almost shocking when life continued without her there. For months I felt like she was just back home in El Paso going on with her life, and I was going on with mine. Certainly she wasn’t gone. She couldn’t be. But she was. {there are still days when I think this isn’t real and get mad when I realize she isn’t there. That I can’t call her and neither can Ave}
In October 2006, I ran Komen Dallas Race for the Cure and raised over a $1,000. To this day, it was my fastest 5k time and it really made me take a different look at running. I’ve always loved running but this took it to the next level. Riding the train to the race that morning, I was so utterly touched by all of the families riding together. All of the survivors in pink–both young and old. Of course I cried a little but it was such a reminder of why organizations like Komen exist.
That fall, I signed up to train for a marathon (26.2 miles) with Team in Training. It was a major task: raising $4,200 and training to run over 26 MILES, but I knew I could do it. I raised all of the money, I trained and trained and almost did it. Three weeks before I was to race in Vancouver, I stress fractured my pelvis and my running days were over for a while. It was definitely disheartening and while in Vancouver to cheer on my teammates, I even thought about walking the race but knew I shouldn’t.
To date, with the help of fantastic people, I have raised over $8,000 (as of April 2010) for cancer research and patient services. But, I won’t stop there. Injuries have sidelined me here and there but I am back to training with TNT. It’s such a great organization that does wonderful things. I ran the Austin Half Marathon on Valentine’s Day morning 2010 (what an inspiration and amazing race). When I wanted to quit, when I was tired, when it hurt, I always thought about my mom and the treatments she endured. I thought of the patients, kids and families who all suffer at the hands of this disgusting disease and I pushed myself further. I run so that my daughter will hopefully live a life that sees better treatment for cancers, or better yet, no cancer at all. For me, running is more than exercise. It’s a stress reliever, it’s empowering, it’s a champion for those that can’t leave a hospital room because they worry about getting sick, it’s for my MOM.
So, that’s why I run.
